What Would Jen Do

Five weeks ago I started having what I thought were weird muscle vibrations.   After tons of research and a doctors visit that got me almost nowhere, we were still stumped.   I had some x-rays done and they showed some degeneration of the spine and some other things they couldn’t quite figure out.   One MRI later and I have 4 herniated discs and the vibrations are swollen nerves.  I really thought I was going to lose my effing mind because the nerve vibrations were mentally exhausting and almost unbearable.    Thankfully I had/have minimal pain which mostly starts up when i sit wrong or stand for too long.

And it turns out that all my home healing remedies were on the right track.  Sit better, don’t sit for too long, use a heating pad, get a massage, take ibuprofen and lots of hot baths.   dr’s orders.

No idea how I herniated these discs, they said it could be that i’m just susceptible to them or maybe i hurt myself a while ago, turned wrong, heredity, etc.    if you ask my mothers chiropractor he’s got a whole new list of reasons.   but lets not go there.

Christmas was very good except for when I woke up around 5am with a nasty nasty migraine, puked my guts out and then passed out on the couch for 4 hours. I really wanted to make my husband breakfast and open presents with him.  maybe next year.

I really hope that next year being an even year brings us good things.   We are on a peaceful and healthy track for the new year.   low on drama and heavy on the self improvement.    We don’t really make resolutions but there are things that we want to do and WILL do.  things that got pushed off this year because really, this was not a fun year for me.  but now that it’s almost over, it’s pretty easy to forget all the bullshit that had been consuming me for months on end.    i don’t really want to be superstitious but i’m having a hard time arguing with history.